Managing My Expectations at 3:25 PM

The recent developments between S and my wife have been fuel for a lot of long-time fantasies I thought would never be possible. So far their enjoyment of each other has been very private -- while I've known about it, it has always been away from our house. It's always been in the car, or in the hotel room, or at a mutual friend's house who knows the situation.

Tonight, it's going to be at our house.

My wife is having several friends over for a game night, a standing plan every month and this month is her turn to host it. S is going to be coming over early and I'm under strict instructions to find somewhere to take our three kids so my wife and S can enjoy some quality time beforehand.

However, more interesting is the plan for AFTER the game night. S is getting a ride over, the idea being that my wife will need to give her a ride home. However, for that to happen obviously S will have to be the last one here. My wife was talking to S last night online and asked how she would feel if I were home... S's response was that she would find it hot, what's more she wouldn't even mind me watching.

Holy. Fuck.

This morning I suggested to my wife that if she didn't feel comfortable with me watching (whatever S might feel), perhaps she could lock me in the closet and pursue her pleasure with S. She broached the subject with S who apparently responded, again, that it was a hot idea (after my wife explained the closet and pointed S to her blog post about the closet shortly after I'd finished it).

So now the fantasies are going absolutely batshit insane in my head, new ones popping up as I manage to put old ones out of my mind. A short while after my wife told me that, and after a lot of thought, I told my wife that while I was bound in whatever way she wanted me, any of S's curiosities about my bondage, my belt, whatever, were OK by me as long as they were acceptable to her.

In other words, if my wife is okay with it, I'm fine with S doing whatever she wants to do. To me, to my wife, whatever.

And now I just need to try to not go completely crazy thinking about what might fall within the range of acceptable for S and for my wife. There are some extenuating circumstances but as my wife and I were talking this morning, I said to her, "I guess I should be careful which fantasies I voice, eh?"

"Probably," was all she said in response.

I will probably keep my mouth shut tonight.

Probably.