As Miss Christina pointed out in a comment yesterday, last night my timer rolled beyond the three week mark. My pool of energy is pretty much at its peak -- I'm ready to go any time for just about anything the slightest bit sexual.
Of course, my overflowing reservoir is only half of the equation for hot nights. Despite the fact that I'm up, when she's down obviously nothing happens. Unfortunately, she's down at the moment.
Last night as we were watching shows together, after the kids had gone to bed and I'd finished folding laundry she told me to go and get my collar. My hopes for something happening last night soared, especially since we hadn't been able to do anything over the weekend. She had me sit on the couch with her and after the next show was over she asked if I wanted to watch another one.
"Not particularly," I said.
"Are you ready for bed?" she asked.
"Not particularly," I repeated.
"Oh I see," she said. Then didn't say anything for a minute. I wondered what she was thinking but pretty much immediately got the sense that she wasn't where I was. She flipped around the menus on the Tivo, deleting episodes of shows we'd already seen or weren't interested in watching. Finally after a long time, she said, "I'm sorry I'm just not there. Since you're not getting anything tonight, do you want to watch a show?"
"Sure," I said. It was hard not to be hurt but on the other hand I understood.
"It just feels like forever since we did anything," I said to her. Which is true. Despite my posting every day, my attempts to notice and be grateful for all the little things... we've both felt disconnected from each other. I have my own guesses as to the reasons for it, and it's not really anything we can control, but it's frustrating nonetheless.
We watched another show or two and turned in to bed. She was kind enough to let me sleep in my collar (and I got a little chuckle out of noticing that the dog's collar went off just before mine went on and that after I took mine off his would go back on), and off we sped to a fitful night of sleep.
Hopefully we can get the space between us taken care of but in the mean time my desire from Sunday night is all but gone, put into the back of my mind while I wait for her to start feeling better.
Lucky Little Whore
4 hours ago
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Sorry to hear you two aren't on the same page right now :(.
I know this from the other side, as it is normally Sam who is down for the count and not me. He tends to get sick often and with his ongoing thyroid issues, sometimes he just has very off days.
Have you two ever considered bathroom control? I can see that you really love feeling submissive to your Princess and being under her control, and much of that is indirect. What I mean by that is you have a list of things that are expected of you daily, your chores and so forth. While it is submissive to do those, and it certainly is a big part of your service to her, it can also become just a bit mundane, or a bit routine.
I wonder if you implemented bathroom control if it would help create more of a spark at times when you both feel so disconnected. The FLR is not all sexual. Sure you are locked away and she has control of that, but from what I have read and sensed from your posts, you go about your duties, locked away, waiting for her to use you, and it can be very hard I am sure to continue putting forth that same level of excellent service or above and beyond service when you feel disconnected from her.
The nice thing about changing it up sometimes, or adding something new, is that as long as there is some interaction, even on a small level, the connection is stronger.
Even when Sam is sicker than a dog, or so tired he can't feel the least bit like my slut, or everything is working against us, there is still this: bathroom control. There is still the asking that takes place each time he wants to pee. It doesn't have to be sexual at all...and sometimes it can be with some creative fun but the point is it doesn't. There is something very submissive about giving someone else control over when and how you pee. It can also be quite amusing for the Mistress because it really is a nice form of control. It gives a chance for the connection to be renewed or just activated several times a day and it gives the chance for some easy teasing and such.
Now some won't consider the idea of bathroom control at all. And it doesn't have to involve pee play (although I think I remember you like golden showers) but it is really a form of CONTROL first and foremost. It is so simple to do.
I prefer to have Sam ask me when he wants to pee or needs to pee. If I am unable to answer him within 20 minutes then he has waited and suffered that way so he is allowed to go. Otherwise who knows, I may say yes, or just a flat out no, or I might tease him or make him beg, all depends on my mood at the moment or what is going on. The nice thing is that there will always be those plain old yeses, but then he never knows when the no is coming or when the ok you can pee but you must do this for me is coming. It can be very exciting.
Oops wrote too much for one post. see next post for the rest..........
part two.....
Or sometimes if that is not possible you could be told to carry a dice around and roll it. If you roll odd you can pee right then. Even means you wait 5 minutes and roll again. Or maybe it means you wait 1 minute for each number you rolled.
There are so many ways to incorporate this.
I was just thinking of you two with this one because of how sometimes you aren't on the same page sexually, which can make the entire element of you being locked away and that cock being there for her amusement and pleasure and to be used only when and how she sees fit, but what happens when you are locked away and you have this disconnection...and it's not so much for her pleasure and amusement at that moment, but rather because something isn't clicking at the moment and its better to have you wait until it does click.
I can understand how it happens. You two have family and kids and work and a house to care for. Not everyone can feel very sexual all the time, but I can sympathize from your perspective also that it has got to be very hard to be locked up horny as hell ready to do anything at all to please her, and her mind is as far from sexual creativity as possible. I do feel for you. It must have been hard to put a smile on your face and go to bed, but you did because you love her and you will wait for her. You are really very special.
So this is all just a bit of advice. I know bathroom control is not for everyone, but to those open to considering it, I can say first hand that even when I have a horrible day, and I don't feel well or I am tired or I have a headache or work is stressful, just getting that "Mistress may I please pee for you?" puts a big smile on my face. I am instantly reconnected and focused on my duty as Mistress, and it gives that little spark. It also keeps the fact that he is my slut, there serving my pleasures fresh in my mind.
Maybe it would work or be something you guys would want to try. I think it would keep you in that submissive mind set even more and remind you even more of how lucky you are to have your Princess. And it also might just put a smile on her face and help her to feel more dominant even in every day situations, and when you can feel that more often, the creative parts come more naturally, and when she is often reminded everyday of how much control she has over you, she would remember too how lucky she is to have the gift of your submission.
It really is a give and take. Both sides are lucky. The dominant can't take control that the sub doesn't want to give and so forth. Both sides are equally lucky. Just the same, the sub can't give control of anything that the dominant doesn't want to accept.
Well that's my two cents of the day. Hope you two get back on the same page soon :). I know it's very very hard, and it can be easy to get frustrated, but try not to let that show, and behave and please her even with your patience and understanding.
Oh and on a side note: I got my ass in gear this week, and decided that I was going to focus on doing 10 minutes a day just stepping on and off the wii fit board, not even with the game on. That and my weight lifting and it seemed all I could commit to for now, but it worked, something about that daily part I think, because I lost 5.8 pounds this week! How's yours going?
Thank you for the source code for the counter. I put it on my blog. But for some reason I had to adjust the real date I last let him cum by one day earlier to get the right amount of days. It should have been 6 days after letting him cum on the 17th but it only said 5. But maybe I did something wrong.
Miss Christina,
If you'll forgive me for making you wait until tomorrow, I'll address the issue of bathroom control in my post tomorrow.
As for the counter, I'll look at the code you have up and see what's going on -- send me an e-mail to rfwop@yahoo.com and we can talk about it out of the comments. Also, there's a section you should take out as it's my page tracker script too -- while I don't mind you inflating my hit counter a little I would prefer the hits be accurate. It's everything from the first <script> to the second </script> (the counter code starts at <div id=... etc)
Oops missed your question about weight loss at the end! I've managed to do a workout every day except 4 this month (on 2 of those four I at least did a weigh in) -- my wife actually threatened that if I missed it again on Monday I would be punished.
Unfortunately the loss hasn't really come. While I am under 200 pounds for the first time in several years, I seem to be at an equilibrium point -- I lose a pound, gain it back, and am bouncing between 198 and 202 pretty regularly. I think to get any better I need to either intensify the activity (right now I do the free step for 20-30 minutes every morning) or change my diet significantly.
I'm hoping that it will warm up in the mornings soon and I can start mixing it up with a morning run or bike ride. As much as I enjoy being able to watch TV while I work out I'd like to get back into the shape I was in high school when a 50 mile bike ride was for pleasure!
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