It's funny, the depths to which desperation to cum will make a man sink. Today, while I was struggling as hard as I could to focus on work, all I could think about was her. Her intoxicating scent, the sweet taste of her pussy and her golden nectar (which I've been more privileged to lick off her after she uses the bathroom lately). How badly I wanted to feel my freed flesh inside of her and the pleasure on her face as I thrust into her over and over.
Of course, to get any kind of reward, one must work at it! Early this afternoon, while the kids were down for a nap, we had this conversation:
Me:was actually gonna text you and see if you felt like coming down for a quick lick :)
Her: Hmmm...maybe. :)
Her: I'm too cold. :)
Me:It will warm you up baby :)
Her: But I'd have to go down there...and up here I'm under the blanket.
Me:We've got blankets down here :)
Her: Yes but they are cold, and this one is warm.
Me:Is there any way I can convince you to come down here and let me lick you to a hot, sweaty orgasm?
Her: I don't know...what you got?
Me:A tongue that aches for your pussy
Her: Uh huh
Her: What else you got? Why should I LET you lick me>
Her: ?
Me:Because I offer it to you freely, without expectation of anything in return... because it feels good, and it will put you in the mood for your party tonight... because you enjoy knowing that i won't be able to think about anything but you the rest of the day
Her: Now that's pretty convincing. :)
Me:baby's awake
At this point, I won't lie - I was a bit disappointed. That I had finally convinced her and the baby woke up. She came down a minute later to get the baby and the conversation continued:
Her: Thank you.
Me:You're welcome... for what?
Her: For wanting me so much, for licking me, just for everything. :)
Her: Now I'm going to be on edge all day...thinking about you, wanting you...and I like that. :)
I think it finally clicked. I've known somewhere in my mind that it wasn't really about me being desperate, but I didn't really get it. It's not about her wanting me to be utterly desperate... it's that she wanted me to be utterly desperate for her. She wants to know, wants me to make it clear, that she is the object of my desire. She wants to feel like the high school girl she was a few years ago who I bugged endlessly until she caved on going to the prom with me.
Now that I get it, of course, the key is keeping it up :)
Since we didn't get to play this afternoon, I didn't get to finish my plans for her -- after a good licking, I was actually desperate enough that I would have asked for a ruined orgasm, or some teasing, or anything just to get her to grin and enjoy her sense of control. Still, its out there now, we'll see what she thinks when she reads that!
So tonight, I am sitting at home (while she is out with her friends, they didn't have coffee but they are out, long story)... after she had been out for a little while she sent a text and told me to put in my plug, put on my clamps and change my underwear for panties. That was about an hour ago... my nipples are starting to strain with the weight and pressure of the clamps, but as I close my eyes I can almost see the grin on her face as she picks them up and lets them drop free... or pulls on one... or twists it...
And her cock, safely out of my reach in its cage, twitches at her control over me even while she is not here.
Lucky Little Whore
4 hours ago
2 comments:
I know this is an older post of yours, but I was on a hunt tonight trying to find some examples of a few things that would clue Sam into what I am trying to get him to realize in order to get him to the place I am wanting him back at before he will be allowed to cum.
This is the longest he has ever gone without a real orgasm, and it is interesting, because he is so far from mentally being where I want him.
The past 6 months with him being sick more than healthy and his thyroid constantly shutting down more and more has really taken a toll on his ability to express this desperation for me that he used to, the feeling I always had before from him that he was desperate for me and keeping my pleasures always first.
So...between this post and few from our tasking site from some interesting things I had him doing last summer for me there, I think he has an overall picture of what direction he needs to get back to...before he will be allowed to cum again.
And based on our conversation tonight he did tell me that he wants to get there as quickly as he can, but not because he wants to cum so much, even though he does, but because he wants me to be happy and feeling all that like I was before.
So...:) Thanks for such a great post!
It was an interesting revelation and one I've tried to keep in mind as we go on. Sometimes it's easier, like these past few days as we've gotten a lot more intense and played a lot more, to remember that she wants me desperate for her and that desperation is rewarded with the things I like... because when she feels wanted, when she knows how badly I want her, she wants me to suffer for her a lot more these days which means good (and bad!) things for me.
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